For my yoke is easy and my burden is light – Matthew 11:30 What an easy scripture to quote and meditate on … yet, (for me) such a hard scripture to walk out. Yes, God and I have a tug-of-war … repetitively. I have heard and tried to abide by this for most of my years but when I really contemplate on this I #fail CONSTANTLY.
I start all nice and neat with prayer of “giving” my burden to God. But, His timing is not my timing. His ways are not my ways. And, I, almost always, take my burden back. In my feeble, humanistic reasoning I think that I can solve this problem so much better or faster than God. And, I just end up frustrated with one more trip around the mountain.
Just when I start to celebrate thinking I have overcome something, He brings that situation right back into my life. Herein lies the test. This is to see if I can surrender again. This is to see if I can and have really turned this area over to God. I have concluded that once is easy – I mean we can do anything for a moment or even a season. It is the repetition of a burden that defines how much we have grown.
I came across such type situation again this week. I had gone through something really heart wrenching in the fall. Truth be told, I did not handle it well. I tried but I did not succeed. I did, however, recognize my failure and repented. So, what did God do? He tested me again. This time, I was much more victorious! It is not that the situation was not any easier. It was just that I really did cast that care upon the Lord.